Post-Thanksgiving

I had a normal eating day yesterday.  I know!  I can hardly beleive it myself.  I had regular portions & I even wasn't that excited about the pumpkin pie.  This is weird for me.  Thanksgiving is a day to eat!  And pumpkin pie is/was seriously a big highlight during the holidays for me. I longed for & feared it.  I couldn't be trusted to not polish off a pumpkin pie left over from the celebrations. I did have some, but the excitement wasn't there.  Since I started my supplements & changed up my diet I am amazed by my lack of interest in the old foods I so love(d).  I'm leary to put passed tense, because as sad as it sounds Ben & Jerry were dear to me for a long time.  I've been ice cream free for 6 weeks & I didn't have even 1 peice of candy from my kids trick or treat stash this year.  The best part is that I don't feel like I'm deprived or struggling.  I feel like I'm waking up!  I am a lot more engaged in my life with out the sugar & garbage weighing me down.  I have lost 14lbs, but I haven't been weighing myself often.  It's really not about the numbers.  It's going to take as long as it takes.  Now, I'm focusing on getting moving!  My son has expressed an interest in going to the gym more to get ready for track.  So I have another reason to go!  I want to support healthy habits.

I focused this Thanksgiving on being thankful. Go figure? I have SO much to be grateful for.  I have amazing family & friends.  I love my work & I have so much to look forward to!

Said goodbye to the ICK and hello to the good stuff;)

I'm on day 7 of a sugar free week.  Everything I've put in my mouth this past week had a very short & simple ingredient list.  What a difference.  I had a session with Dr. Twomoon at Breathing Waters Health Center in Plymouth, MI.  She did work with me with the MORA.  She was able to tell me non-beneficial & beneficial foods for me.  She was also able to tell me what supplements my body wants right now.  I also found out that my lungs test strong & that my issues are in my digestive system!  Who knew?  My asthma has been crazy.  I was using my inhaler way more than usual.  Dr. Twomoon explained to me that in chinese medicine the lungs & the colon are closely linked.  So the issue is digestive, but it's showing up in my lungs.  You may be sceptical, but since I adjusted my diet & started the supplements I have had very little issues with my asthma!  I've had to be creative, but I haven't felt deprived at all.  My sweet tooth isn't whining either.  I've been keeping it in check with yummy fruit & my favorite tea.  Love Tranquilitea in Plymouth, MI.

One of the beneficial foods I have added are figs.  Aren't they beautiful!

I am so grateful for all my blessings.  I wish love and generosity to all!

Angelique

P.S.
To find Dr.Twomoon check out http://www.breathingwaters.net/

The Beginning

I'm done hiding from cameras.  I'm done hiding my eating habits.  I'm done avoiding people & places I'm afraid I won't fit, like the gym, the pool, the seats at my kids school functions.  I'm done with Weight Watchers, or any other "diet". I've gone that route and lost a significant amount of weight.  It always comes back. I know how to eat healthy.  That's never been the issue.  I'm great at watching my weight....climb.  What I want is to BE PRESENT in my LIFE.  While I'm busy fixating on my next pint of ice cream or my next weight loss attempt I am not being present.  I am not in family photos, and I avoid celebrations.  When my kids look back at their childhood they will have only a handful of pictures to prove I was ever there, because I was either hiding or those photos conveniently went missing.  I have tried to find support for food addiction.  What I found was that I can't afford the therapists and my insurance doesn't cover them, or there is the Bariatric surgery option.  I know surgery is right for some people.  I don't think I am one of them.  I want to get out from under this addiction for the same reasons an alcoholic does.  It takes away from my relationships.  I'm here, but I'm not here.  Slowly, but surely it is killing me.  Being big isn't a picnic, but even if I was at my ideal weight I would still need to deal with my issues with food.  So I'm going to take it one day at a time.  I choose me.  I choose to BE PRESENT.  I will probably have to choose it over and over.  That's life.  I hope that I connect with other people on my way that share the same goals.  I know that I am not alone.